take a good look around

i just realised that my lil panic attack over the cambridge predicted results were for nothing -.- cos the date for submission is oct 13. whew. so it SHOULD be based on my predicted scores. unless my dear ct does smthing stupid. grumbles. anyway, today is my applications day. hahaha, i'm gonna get all my applications done today once and for all. lalalala. and then leave everything to fate. big believer of fate here, but not destiny. shrugs. my weird logic. go figure. do you sometimes look someone you're very familiar with in the face, and realise that you've gotten so used to seeing that person, that you haven't properly looked at him or her in a very long time. and they've changed. and for a moment you just can't recognize their faces anymore. their faces are no longer similar to that in ur memory, the face that you superimpose onto their present faces, the one you think you see but its no longer there. that happened to me when i was looking at yet today (anyone who's been to my hse knows yet. haha, hell some ppl haven't and they know her), and for a moment it struck me how old she looks now. she's still all mad and crazy, but she looks much older from that in my memory. she's spent 15 yrs of my life with me. she's prob the person i've spent the most time in my entire life with, and it may seem sad to some, that its not my parents i spend e most time with, but it just makes me feel even more loved. i know i'm guilty for taking alot for granted. alot ppl rather. and thinking about uni has made me more appreciative of all the ppl around me, cos i know it'll all be gone.. so thank you.

: star mile :: joshu radin :
from the last kiss ost (: lovely songs.